Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Mwangaza

Here are a few poems published in Mwangaza, Journal of University of Nairobi Literature students (2002) Nairobi, Kenya. Though the Journal is titled Mwangaza (Light) the light that these poems shine is very dark


To A Friend

It is painful to hurt a friend
It is painful to stab a soul mate
For when we hurt the other
We hurt ourselves
It is like punching a mirror
Hurting one through whom
You see a reflection
Of your very self
It is hard not to understand yourself
Arguing with the very person
Who has moulded a part of your personality
Made a part of what I call "me"
It is hard to stay this way
But it is even harder to get on the right road again
For then we have to dig into ourselves
Discard all that is vain
Do away with all the pain
Look for a place where honour, love and respect remain
I hope that life’s journey leads us closer to that place

©2002 James Dan Adolwa


God In My Mind


I believed in a god who spoke lies
I believed in a god who spoke vanity
into my mind
My god gave promises,
Which were never to come to pass.
And birthed dreams in my mind,
to make a fool of me infront of those
I opened my heart

I held on to empty hopes
I gave service to a foolish goal.
It was insanity.
That was what it was.
For after all this,
my god never bothered to visit me

I spoke to him devotedly
But did he speak back to me?
And though his prophets talked of
and showed his majesty,
His majesty never happened to me

So let me speak
one last time to him.
It might seem
a most foolish thing
but one does not pay attention
to one who is ignoring him

So god in my mind
You know all my prayers
You already know
the troubles on my mind
Not only because you know all
But also that I have told you
many times before.
I need an answer
Not to prove your existence
But to find out whether
you really care
or not at all
I will not repeat my prayers
But I’ll make the unspoken requests
Through these words
So answer me
Dear God.

©2002 James Dan Adolwa


The Mess that I Am

You look at me and think.
Boy! His life is all right.
Well can I give you my sleepless nights?
You say he couldn’t have a problem on his mind
But can you take it, if all your friends said goodbye?
And that night I almost lost my mind!!!
Have you ever lived like a pauper in a rich mans house?
Or been ordered to fast at a feast?
Have you ever regretted who you are?
Or has anyone ever tried to make you what you don’t want to be?
So I do not want or need your compliments
Or shouts of surprise
For they only torment my mind
And let me know even more that
I have not reached my goal
And have become the mess that I am.
I know that all that I want is within grasp
But the devil that I am is holding back my hand

©2002 James Dan Adolwa

Monday, March 30, 2009

THINGS

Some things just creep up on you
You don’t know when they started
You don’t know how they are going to end
Some things just turn up for you
Good or bad: Enemy or friend
Some things just take control of you
Others you can make work for you
Some make life like heaven or hell
But one things certain
All things come to an end
We just don’t know how or when

(James D. Adolwa 24/9/2002)

Friday, March 27, 2009

NEW PARKING LOT OPEN

Mombasa road Is not a road
Its a huge crawling parking lot
Its faster to walk.
Better find your way to Enterprise road
But don't make the mistake of crawling on Mombasa Road

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

DELUSION

Just learnt something from my last post....how much can you push the truth until it becomes a lie...I hope you people are with me... believing something so so completely that it flips and becomes its very opposite. Believing the truth to the point that it becomes a lie. That's the stuff that cults are made of...pushing the truth until it becomes a lie...the truth on drugs....getting high on the truth...shifting the truth to overdrive...overspeeding with the truth....

Definitions from my friend the dictionary ( all from wordweb)

-The act of deluding; deception by creating illusory ideas

-A mistaken or unfounded opinion or idea

-(psychology) an erroneous belief that is held in the face of evidence to the contrary

Glad I was able to face the truth....or was I?????

Sunday, March 22, 2009

MORE FROM THE ARCHIVES

Done poetry, painting, drawing, a little of prose and now I am going to try some music (or something that comes close to it) These are from my archives...my very first attempts at recording music. Despite the poor quality (both in the instrumentation and the vocals) I still give myself a little credit because not many people can do this - whatever it is- Did these close to five years ago. Never shared them and since I don't do any music anymore I thought they might rot in the archives so I decided to bring them out.Enjoy or get thoroughly irritated...its all up to you


24/03/2009------I listened to my conscience and got rid of the music....couldn't stand it myself ------- delusion is a very dangerous thing.....am laughing now..... I just cannot believe that I put that out for close to 24 hours....I cannot believe it...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Thursday, March 12, 2009

NO CONTROL

NO CONTROL

I don't know what to feel right now.
If I get angry I will probably break down and cry.
Today I ran into a gang of thugs.Hijacked
I went for a tour of Nairobi under the seat of a car.
With the constant threat of a bullet and a gun.

Today I know I have a lot to be grateful for
But today I also realize just how much I am not in control
My life, my time, my day, my plans, my income, my spending,
In one minute everything can go wrong
In one instant you lose your life, your joy, your song, your soul.


James Adolwa 12/03/2009

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

FUSION - Indo Maasai



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Interesting how two things that are distinctly different and seperate can be brought together to form something more harmonious and beautiful than the two on their own....just attended the Indo-Masai fusion dance at the French Cultural Centre in Nairobi and was inspired by the whole performance. Two different styles of dance...that developed in distinctly different environments and were performed through history for different reasons were put together to produce something that was more powerful than any one of them.

It got me thinking..."What things can I put together in my life to produce something that is of more value than the two on their own". Just think about it...two interests...two talents...two hobbies...two friends...two seperate items of clothing...two bank accounts...two seperate investments...two things just two things...here are some examples of fusion to get you inspired



-The merging of adjacent sounds or syllables or words (wordweb)

-The combining of images from the two eyes to form a single visual percept (wordweb)

-Correction of an unstable part of the spine by joining two or more vertebrae (wordweb)

-nuclear fusion


These are not the best examples of fusion but they are certain to get you thinking of things that you can put together in your life to make it better...

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